Love of my life

I never thought the first post I'd ever written about eito would be about this. I wanted it to be a perfect piece, one where I talk about how amazing every member is, how they've changed my life for the better and how I've been taught priceless lessons from their pure determination and hardwork. Instead, it's now one where I have to talk about Subaru qutting.

The rumours came out a few days ago and I so quickly disregarded it because well, its Friday and you can't really trust paps. It was a rumour about how Subaru hated the direction of k8's music and how he hates being an idol with the constant usage of shita-neta and stuffs on variety shows. Which of course no one took it seriously because Subaru is the god of shita-neta and with k8 writing and producing their own songs, how could anything from this baseless rumour be accurate right? W R O N G. I woke up to posts on IG dedicating "thank you subaru kun for the past 15 years". Thinking that my IG feed must've been wrong, I rushed to check twitter only to be confirmed that it is indeed true. Tons of articles and press con pictures flooded my timeline as I sat in shock not truly comprehending what actually went down.

Admittedly my life is already going down south, and in my head I was thinking "when it rains, it pours."

Of course I'm hurt and terribly upset that subaru chose to leave kanjani8 but ultimately it's his choice to make. He's right when he said that he's 36, he's at this half-point mark in his life and has been in the entertainment biz for 15 odd years. It's only right that he chooses to live his own life now, to pursue what he wants.

Shibutani Subaru is the the perfect example of "if not now, then when?" We're all so afraid of leaving our comfort zone, so afraid of pursing our dreams purely because of the great unknown. But not Shibutani Subaru, the wild stallion who yearns for more, to really break all boundaries and limits. Just like the lion in uchuu, he's desperately running after his dreams, leaving the cage, exploring the globe, aiming for the galaxies.

I'm beyond thankful and proud to call this man my favourite person on earth. Thank you for showing me that it's important to put your dreams and yourself first. Thank you for showing me that sky's not the limit and if you want it, you go get it. Thank you for being so honest. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

I'm never going to forget that you're part of kanjani8. Because you ARE kanjani8. For better or worst, I'm thankful and grateful for everything that has happened. We don't know what the future might bring, but I sincerely believe all is going to be well. It doesn't just end here.

xoxo,

Wendy