She Who Dares, Win

Sometimes all you need is just a tiny push forward. I've learnt that you get in life what you have the courage to ask for. If I could turn back the hands of time, I'd not change a single thing. Sure, I've made some pretty crappy decisions before but they all led me to where I am today. Perhaps the accumulation of these wrongs might make a right and I'd end up in a much better place than where I am today but still, I wouldn't change a thing.

A clean-slated newcomer with a head full of dreams, I went into the business not knowing limits and blatantly requested for a change in department. Guess what? I failed. But it was something I felt that I had to do at that point in my life. I was unhappy and stressed out physically, mentally and emotionally. If I hadn't asked, I would've been the souless, mindless walking being merely existing in skin and flesh, allowing the wretched social pressures slowly consume my unique thoughts one by one.

A naive airhead with rose-tinted shades, I was wrongly misled into the notion of what love is. I fought for what I thought would keep me grounded. Guess what? I failed. Sure, I was bummed for a bit but I sure wasn't going to allow myself to be strung along in an ambiguous situation. If I hadn't asked, I would've been the poor trapped fly caught in a labyrinth of deceptive web of lies, unable to fly out of it even if I tried.

A fighter refusing to give up on my dreams, I sent in an application for an amazing opportunity. From that moment, I knew it was all I ever wanted to do. I answered every single question with sincerity. I prepped for days and nights for every stage of the seemingly endless process consisting of assorted tests and case studies. I didn't want to leave anything to fate. I know I'm not experienced enough but I had to make this work because this is what I really R E A L L Y want. I tailored every experience I had to match the job, I went to the library to borrow books on it, I read up on so many different sites and guides on it. Guess what? I got it. If I hadn't asked, if I hadn't worked for it, if I hadn't given in my all, I wouldn't have known my potential and that I am indeed, capable of this. Great things do come to those who hustle real hard.

Of course, it's beyond frightening, terrifying even, when things won't go your way and you have to deal with the aftermath of the stinging pain and unpleasant embarrassment from the harsh rejections. But the thing is, you'll never know where you're going to end up if you don't ask, if you don't try. You're only going to regret the things that you didn't do when you clearly could've done something about it. Fight for it if you really want it. Work for it if it's your goal. Reach for it if it's in plain sight. Sometimes you just have to kick your indecisions, worries and fears to the curb and JUST. DO. IT. No questions asked. I know I'd do it all over again. What if it doesn't work out? Ah, what if it does? 2018 has been such an amazing ride, I've been through so much downs which made me appreciate even the littlest highs. It's true that there's absolutely nothing better than the littlest joys in life. In 2019, my only goal is to enjoy every single day with a lil' dust of bliss, happiness and joy.

xoxo,

Wendy