Unlimited

This past weekend has been utterly soul crushing having to deal with countless blows one after another (literally a day apart each) but I figured I'm not going to let 'em break me. If anything, they'll become my motivation to fight for a better tomorrow.

Admittedly I'm not the most religious person I've ever known and has always been skeptical about it. But during the times when I needed spiritual enlightenment, I find listen to 大悲咒 really helpful in calming myself down and removing all sorts of negativity/bad thoughts. So last evening, I stepped into this temple 20mins away from my place hoping I'll gain some enlightenment.

I don't really know how to explain it since I've never exactly stepped into temples much (maybe like 5 times max in my entire life?) but there was this area specially dedicated to guanyin which really touched me. As I knelt there looking up at her, all I could think of was how I wanted everyone I'm acquainted with to be happy and healthy. I had to tell myself to NOT tear up right there and then.

One thing I was really proud of was seeing my sister's dedication. She's a larger skeptic than I am when it comes to religion and absolutely refuses to talk about it. So it was kinda special seeing her being dedicated. Which made me realize that it's always nice to have a little bit of faith and trust in others. Obviously praying to get an A in your exams and then refusing to study for it will NEVER work out but if you've put in adequate hard work and you're in need of some assurance that you'll do well, it's absolutely alright to rely a bit on prayers to ascertain yourself. I believe the entire function of praying lies not in magically 100% making your wishes come true (hello, you're not Cinderella and you have no fairy god mother. Life simply doesn't work this way.) but in giving you confidence, assurance and strength that things will definitely get better.

By the way I went to get myself a piece of reading and it says "A fool would borrow a light when he is in possession of matches yet he knew not that fire is obtained from their usage". Right now I still have no idea (does anyone ever knows what readings mean??) what it really means except the fact that I am already in possession of something amazing and I shouldn't go around looking for something less worthy. I like how readings are ambiguous because really, they don't really mean anything specific in your life since it's fate (or probability if you're an atheist) that you picked what you picked. I think readings are purely helpful, gentle reminders and motivational words to get you through your toughest period based on how you apply 'em to your predicament :)

Ending off with a positive message:

You're unlimited and the best thing in the world is that you get to be you. Don't shortchange yourself and think that you're not worth it. You're worth every bit of happiness and goodness in the world.

xoxo,

Wendy